It Was 30th of March 2007 when i first saw neha. After returning from Cricket match i entered my
room. There i saw few guests. I shake hand with them and got sticked to my P.C. While Guest where on
verge to leave for home, my dad came and said" Dont you have any manners? Go and See off them, she
is your mom's friend. I just ran and went there. I saw a Girl entering in WagonR. Those 5 minutes i
just saw a Girl with a smile. Her glory made me smile dont know why. May be i was in Love in first
sight. At that moment i wanted to stop them, talk to her but i was helpless. She was Gone. For me a
beautiful dream was gone forever. First time in life someone felt close and so far.
The Very next Day i was preparing for Movie.My Dad Said to me Hey Neha is coming to your
tuition from tomorrow, do help her. I just said ok ok ok bye.
Next day, 1st april 2007 i was Studying in my tuition. Suddenly a girl in soft voice entered
and said goodevening sir. The moment i saw her i again fall in love(2nd time). 1st time ever felt
such feeling. i knew it was LOVE. As time passed we started talking. Dont know about my maths but i
was busy solving her's. I started knowing about her more deeply. Met Lots of friends in Saint
Maries. I was not at all bothered about her past. I had fallen in love with her present. She made me
enter Orkut. Otherwise i would have known one thing and that is google. We started chatting. I am
Skipping So many moments to make it small enough. Diwali and Eid were the only festival for which i
used to wait for long. We go on talking and soon became best friends. Soon our likes and dislikes
were respected by each other. I am not as handsome as every girl had dreamt of, but yeah she was too
beautiful for my heart to say "Marry Me".
14th feb 2008, i was texting her. Somehow i managed to propose on text. I wrote" i Love you
neha". I waited 5 min for the reply. Then after i started typing" i am sry, i never wanted to hurt
you, plz do not leave me". Suddenly my mobile vibrated. Now Now Now what to do? send message or just
save and read it. I read it. " Yes you are my man, i love you too" you know what i coundn't sleep
that night. Walking throughout my house. Dad was shocked, have i gone mad really??. I could not
forget. Soon we transfer to mobile. i asked dad to give me his mobile permanently. Now Rim to Rim
499 aprox. My dad purchased me a sim, but it works with money too. I somehow convinced my mom for
not to prepare breakfast for me rather to give 10 rs for my tiffin. I rarely used these money,being
hungry was not hurting that much than not talking to her.
I was an expected iitian from my coaching institute. For her i started bunking prerna
class(Rs-50,000) for tuition(Rs-300). But this loss was nothing for me infront of her smile. I could
do anything for those smile. You know?? i never kissed her, not even touched. My Love was So pure.
Never hold her hands because for me her prestige was my love. I never wanted anyone to point her.She
was mine, just mine. I have never disclosed to anyone thinking if she might get angry i would die.
She always used to tell me that she will never go against her parents.(again i fall in love when i
see her love toward family). i never asked her to go against her parents. i respected her parents like mine. She is the only child of he parent i can understand. I am Muslim and she was most probably rajput. No chance of our cheerful marriage. I was ready to give her hand to the boy of her dad's choice if he could love her more than me. My 12th board was also at my doors. I have thinked of a real life with her. Her Family and My family Living in Same house with us. How can i take their daughter from them and making them alone forever? No i can not. She is their only princess and life's gift how could i seperate them, that's why i thought of these.
Never knew life has something Strange for me. She Left me Officially on 16th december 2008( vijay diwas day). A shock to my heart and a fatal retard to my brain. I tried to suicide but how can i do that, how can i make my parent suffer my fault, how can they sacrifice rest of their life as they have done before. I decided to Live. My friends supported me.Somehow i managed to make 85% in 12th.
30th march 2009( 2yrs after i met her), i decided to wait for her to understand my Love and come back to me.Waited Waited Waited. She never Replied to my any messages in Facebook. I use to go to mosque every friday and then message her in facebook, no reply again. i still waited waited and waited.
12th aprill 2011, it was her birthday. I wished her. She replied with a thanks. I tried to be her friend, but how can anyone understand my pain. I asked her the reason. And her answer was" I never loved you, i loved someone else. i know i have hurted you, but sorry i was just trying to remove my loneliness.
28th july 2011, it was my birthday..the very last girl to wish me was Neha. She had my no, still wishe din fb. The day i asked to my heart, why i loved her, why my heart felt her, why? just why?. My heart said "Sorry i am too helpless"....
Durga puja vacation..my dad saw all our mails. Last 3 yrs. He said me-" Beta tell me if i could do anything". I said- i love you dad...you made me feel so proud that i have such a parents like you. I will never ever talk of her. But i will Still wait for her.
Neha!! Wherever You are?? I love you!! and will love you till the corruption is totally finished in India.
My Dream Was You!! My life was you!! You never felt my love. God bless you and take care of you. Wherever you are. You are my Life.
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